week 37

The doctor said I was about 75% efaced and a fingertip dilated. If we go in next week and have dilated more, he wants to induce that Thursday and Friday. If not, it will be the next week. I am not sure how I am feeling. I am just out of sorts I think. There are so many emotions, and they are all happening at the same time. It is hard to talk to others and be around a lot of people bc I do not do well with others seeing me be vunerable and I can't express how I am feeling. It doesn't help that I am not sleeping. It has been really hot and I am pretty swollen and my wrists/hands are a mess. However, Jack is doing great and I love to feel him moving around. It is so sweet. My cousins Josh, Meg, and precious Kenzie came through Saturday and spent the night on their way home from the beach. WHAT A GREAT DISTRACTION. It was so nice to just sit around and laugh and talk. The weather was perfect, so we sat outside on the deck and relaxed. There has been so much going everytime we have been together that we haven't had chance to just enjoy each others company. We look forward to more of this in the future and watching our children grow together.

week 36

We went to the doctor Tuesday and I had gained two more lbs. Whatever!!! Anyways, he said the baby was low and that my cervix was 50% thinned out. I was surprised. I didn't expect for anything to have happened, so that was exciting. We are doing an ultrasound next week to see how big Jack is and then meet back with the doctor. I have been so pleased with Dr Ashurst and am so gald he is our doctor.

Thursday night, I had some false labor for about an hour. At one point, I thought Oh my goodness....this is it. I got so sad. As bad as my carpal tunnel is, I don't want it to be over. I can't imagine not feeling him in my belly anymore. Being pregnant is the most amazing feeling ever. I know Scott is excited and ready to meet him but I don't want to share and give this up.